Location, Location, Location

I often have certain lines from songs looping through my head.  It's like playing the 45, and the needle gets stuck.  This morning I awoke with a line from Tesla's "Signs" stuck in my head: "Signs, signs, everywhere there's signs. Blockin' out the scenery, breakin' my mind. Do this, don't do that, can't you read the signs?"  I don't think this so much a segno de Deo as it is that I've been thinking a lot about signs.  This then forces the question of whether what I'm interpreting as signs are really just manifestations of my subconscious.  Then it must follow that if God is within us, the signs are within us, looking for an outlet for observation.

Something that appeared on my phone yesterday has to be a sign because I don't know enough about the inner workings of my Smartphone to manipulate or manifest a sign.  A partial screen has appeared that says, "Unknown Location" and my gmail account is in the lower left corner.  In the upper right corner is a refresh icon and a check mark.  When I double click the check mark, I get a map showing Prior Lake, MN.  The only person I know from there is someone I once had something with, but neither of us wanted to define what the something was.  Now he's defining something with someone else, and I'm looking for signs. 

The screen that says my location is unknown is pretty straightforward.  I don't have a fucking clue where I'm at with my life.  Earlier this spring, I was a little depressed because it seemed like everyone around me was moving: to new jobs, new cities, new homes.  In six weeks my older daughter will be moving away to college.  Everyone's moving, and I'm in an unknown location.  I'm not much for uncertainty and spontaneity....not a good personality type for a cancer patient........or maybe it's the perfect type.  Anyway, I'm a planner, an organizer, a stager.  Yes, these all feed into my control issues.  My life has always had a plan, yet when my younger daughter graduates from high school in two years, I have no idea where I'll be, or even where I want to be.  I want to be the kind of person who finds that thrilling.

As to the Prior Lake location, it's no longer showing up when I click on the check mark.  Now the map shows Mankato and Austin.  Guess that's a sign I'm supposed to be moving on.  God knows he has.